The Realization

Cut away the layers and strip the coating bare

Enough with smooth talk n riddles, make it clear

Cuz I can do without deceit, don't bring that over here

Like a simile, u simulate the things i wanna hear

Honey dripping from ur lips, enticing me to chill

But i ain't falling for that trap, so shawty keep it real

Why u gotta play my mind

running game to every guy

same lines, n over time u start believing in ur lies

A nigga gotta go through hoops man

Put pride aside to climb a mountain just to see if he stands...

A chance to get close enough to say "hello"

But all these walls make it hard to even get to know...

You, shut me out before I start

Another dagger to the heart

Pretty soon the chivalry will cut off sharp

But thats what happens when u put it on a pedestal

Young men open up to impress girls

Lose they mind and they vision cuz the lines are blurred

She don't know what she want, now his feelings hurt

Story of my life, can't even catch a break

Shoulda said something earlier, now its too late

Cuz her hearts holding on to another's lies

Still dealing with the hurt from those crying nights

And now a nigga sitting here back at square one

"Should I let it ride n on to the next one?"

As far as I'm concerned they losing on the best one

Can't no other brotha put it down on u and then some

I guess its never really safe to let em' in first

I wont fall for that trap again, the tables turned

Nah, its never safe to ever let em' in first

I won't fall for that trap again, lesson learned

But now I feel I'm running outta options, what else can i do?

Dressed down, shaped up, AND I smell good

Body right, game tight, AND yo boy can cook

But still I feel there's something missing when I take a look

Soul searching for that thing that'll make me whole

Lets be real, its winter time and I'm type alone

Wanting someone I can hold down and give my love

Ill make her proud, she'll crack smiles when she gets a thought

But nice guys finish last, yea the saying's true

So go get yours, eff the world, thats what ima do

Past experience got me hurting but I keep my cool

Mask it all with some sin like "who can I screw"

Get it poppin' in the whip then go tell my dudes

Just a lil thing i do to hide esteem issues

But in the end, honestly I'm not about that life

It gets old, the feelings gone and I'm off the high

Reaping seeds that I sowed inside potential wives

Karma is the mother of that future bride

And now I'm living in a cold world, stranded

Life's got me feeling like I'm sitting empty handed

No where to go cuz these emotions got me branded

And I be dressing up the wound cuz it ain't scab yet

But this cut is too deep for just a bandage

At times I feel not even God can even handle it

I end up focused on the hurt cuz it's a habit

Internalizing my pain with the tightest death grip

And I can't help it cuz the devil's got me twisted

I'm so good at doing sin, just call me gifted

what kinda water was i really even dipped in

Cuz the Holy Spirit's presence is what im really missing

Heaven only knows, I need to be made whole

I'm stumbling around in chains that need to be broke

Cast out the demons, free me from this slippery slope

On my knees screaming "Lord, I need to feel hope..."